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“The Night I   Met Archangel Raphael (St. Raphael)”

 

It was December 23, 2020 as I lay in bed sick with a severe cold I contracted from my younger son. I was completely alone in the house. My husband had taken our kids to visit his family far away for Christmas break while I healed, as to not get our other child sick. I was not doing well and it was hard to get a hold of my husband because he didn’t check his phone often and never had his ringer on. Unfortunately, each day I had gotten worse since he had left.

 

Sadly, last November marked nearly a year since I had almost died from organ failure. This caused me to have an extremely low immune system, which was why I had gotten so sick due to that near death experience. The doctors had told me that they were all stunned that I lived because anyone else would have surely died. Sadly, my immune system would take three years to recover, if it did repair itself.

 

So due to that past organ failure, I was not doing well. In fact, I knew I was dying. I only got out of my bed to go to the bathroom or care for our pets downstairs, which took all the energy I had. I feared getting out of bed because I began fainting and blacking out. I had fallen to the ground several times only to wake up hours later. Once, I had nearly missed hitting a wall by less than an inch.

 

That afternoon on December 23^rd, I called my husband to tell him I was not doing well and was getting worse each day. It felt like I could hardly breath and I was truly terrified. When I hung up, I tried to rest in bed while praying to God and asking Him for his help and intervention. I told God I knew I was dying and I felt like I was not going to make it to Christmas. I feared dying alone with no one to find me but my family when they came home.

 

I began to fall asleep and began to see the color green. I woke up and lifted my head from my pillow, suddenly feeling I was not alone. I could feel someone in my bedroom but didn’t see anyone when I looked around me room; just felt not alone. Thinking I was sick and it was probably due to that, I laid my head back down and closed my eyes again.

 

I was drifting off to sleep when I saw an image of a book cover vividly appear in my mind. The book was called, Archangels and Ascended Masters: A Guide to Working and Healing With Divinities and Deities by Doreen Virtue (whom I hadn’t known at the time. It appeared in my mind so vividly, but I knew I was not dreaming because I was not asleep yet. In fact, I was so sick, I could hardly sleep. I just seemed to stay in a restless state in between sleep and awake.

 

Soon I saw an image of a prayer within the book as I heard a male voice speak to me saying: “Pray to the Healing Archangel. Say the Prayer to the healing angel and you will be healed.”

 

Swiftly, I sat up in bed and reached for my cell phone laying on my nightstand beside my bed and began to look up the book on Amazon. I didn’t recognize the male voice that spoken to me but felt that God was telling me to pray to this angel to receive help, so I was determined to find this book and prayer.

 

Within minutes I found the book on Amazon and I found the prayer I had seen while resting, inside the book. Thanks to Amazon, I clicked on their wonderful “Look Inside Book” feature which showed me an illustration of the Healing Angel and prayer that was shown to me as I heard the male voice speak.

 

The angel was called, Archangel Raphael: Healing Angel of: Mind, Body, Sprit, and Travel, just like I had seen while trying to sleep.

 

          I took a quick screenshot of the prayer inside the book and ordered the book, which said it would come in two days. I figured that was not soon enough, I had to say the prayer today. I had to say the prayer right now! So I looked up the prayer on Google and the prayer came right up. I jumped right out of bed in my nightgown and got on my knees in prayer position, as I had done all of my life as a Catholic, and read the prayer from my cell phone.

         

          Within seconds I could feel someone behind me as I prayed. I turned around but did not see anyone. However, I could feel the presence of a male in between my two bedroom windows along my wall. Turning myself back around again to continue the prayer, I again put my head down and went on. As I finished the prayer I heard the male voice speak again.

 

          “I have been waiting your whole life for you to say that prayer. Spoke the male voice. From now on, I will guide you and NEVER leave your side.”

 

          Immediately I began to cry and thanked God and the healing angel for listening to my plea. “I have kids, I have to be well. I can’t die. I know my family needs me and can’t live without me. I have to live. Please, God and Archangel Raphael, please heal me.” I begged on my knees sobbing over my bed, so much that I crumbled to the floor now, coughing and crying. Then coughing and crying again, some more.

 

          “Turn around.” I heard the Angel say. “I am right behind you. Turn around and face me.”

 

          Stunned at what I had just heard, but obeying fast, I lifted myself up to see a man standing where I had felt a presence earlier while starting to pray. I knew this was Archangel Raphael. He was a thin, tall man, with a medium sized beard, a lot like Jesus is depicted in drawings. He wore a long spring green and white robe lined with a fine golden stitched pattern that barley hit the floor. Almost, like a modern day priest during Mass. I could just make out his thin tan sandals upon his feet, slightly hidden by his garb. The angel held a long golden staff with a golden round top upon it in his left hand. He generously smiled down at me with love in his warm light brown eyes as he said: “You will be healed in 6 days.”  

 

As I continued to sob uncontrollably from his presence and words, he smiled again and saying, “You need to stop denying your gift to help others. You are meant to help others. You are a ‘Messenger of God’ and you are meant to serve the Lord and heal people through your words and actions provided from heaven. This is your ‘Mission from God.’ It was chosen before you were born. You must stop pushing away and serve.”

 

          I knew what Raphael was speaking of and he was right! I had always known that I was different since I was a child. When I was nine I moved into a haunted home with my mother and three siblings after my parents divorced and had many experiences and saw things. I even wrote a book about my experiences, The Haunting at 2095 regarding Julia, a spirit who haunted our home. Julia wanted me to write the book to raise awareness about mental illness, suicide, and marriage neglect. I saw her and heard her, as I wrote what she wanted. In addition to helping me heal from what I had experienced in the home, by having me write about my own struggles from a child to adulthood, I believe that God sent Julia my way to teach me so that I could teach others.

 

I have honesty had paranormal experiences since the age of four. However, when I tried to talk to my family about it or others, they would tell me, “Stop, that these are workings of the devil,” or even tell me to shut up. I often was treated like I was crazy or called names.

 

I was also afraid of things I would know before they would happen. I often had visions before something bad happened to friends, relatives, and even strangers I had never met. I saw visions of accidents and murders. It was not easy and I was afraid to understand why I saw these things. I saw it as a burden. I did not know how I could possibly help or prevent these things so I feared my gift and pushed it away most of my life or denied it. If a spirit or loved one tried to talk to me and I could hear or see them, I would just close my eyes and sing or pretend they weren’t there. It made a lot of spirits upset with me over the years, but I didn’t know what else to do and feared being treated badly.

 

I could see in the Archangels’ eyes that he felt my thoughts and knew my pain. I can’t explain how or why, but I knew it by looking at him. Raphael looked down upon me with pity in his heart and eyes as he said: “It will not be easy but you can do this for God. You will find your way in time. You are meant to help people through your words, the words of God.”  Just as he finished speaking I saw my uncle who had died (*Note to Reader: I had sadly known he would die young and I was very close to this Uncle*) appear beside Raphael’s left side. My uncle smiled at me and sat next to Raphael on his knees on the floor. My uncle had also been a Catholic and was showing respect for the Archangel, like he would have in life. He nodded his head toward me as if demonstrating to me that he also agreed with the kind angel here to help me and to listen to his words.

 

I must listen!

 

Taken back, I fell to the floor and cried again, this time it felt like many minutes as they both waited patiently for me to understand, express my emotions, and take it in. When I stopped crying I looked at Raphael and my uncle again and soon saw my Grandfather, my Dad’s Father, appear next to my uncle to the left.

 

 I cried out to my grandfather in delight and sadness at seeing him and missing him so much. My uncle and grandfather were the two men in my life that had passed on that had meant so much to me as a child into my adulthood. My grandfather was like a father to me; ONLY GOD COULD KNOW THAT!

 

My grandfather smiled lovingly at me and nodded just as my uncle had and never did speak. However, I understood his presence to mean that I must hear Raphael’s words from heaven and do as he asked. I knew this was the work of God and a miracle.

 

I began asking Archangel Raphael many questions about my life and why I had been chosen. “There has to be someone better and smarter than myself.” I told him.

 

He explained to me that I had been building up for this my whole life and he would send people to me that I could help due to my own past traumatic and toxic experiences. “You will know what to say and how to say it, in order to help them,” he informed me to comfort my fears. They need you. “You will save them from themselves. You are the only one who can help them. They will know and understand this.”

 

Then Raphael told me that God was happy and proud that I had used my gifts to help Julia, (the woman who I wrote my novel about, The Haunting At 2095). He said, “I had stepped up, not only to aid her but to also prevent others from harm.” I listened intently; however I was very overwhelmed and emotional.

 

As I listened I observed the expressions on the two faces of my passed on loved ones, my uncle and grandfather, as they both kneeled silently next to Archangel Raphael. I could feel their love for me and I knew they deeply cared for me and my path behind me and ahead. I could tell they knew what I was feeling, as I tried to wrap my mind around what was happening. Soon I saw their expressions change and Archangel Raphael take a small step to the left pushing my relatives slightly too, as if making room for someone.

 

Suddenly a blinding white flash of light appeared to the right of Archangel Raphael causing my uncle and grandfather to quickly move behind Raphael. They both began to bow their heads and held up their hands in prayer position.

 

I struggled to look up and see through the blinding white light. It was the brightest light I had ever seen. It was radiant and bright and I felt like it was full of mercy and love. I then saw Archangel Raphael motion to the right, announcing to me a new presence. He didn’t need to speak. I could feel who it was. It was GOD himself.

 

I almost fainted. I felt it in my body and my soul that this was in fact, GOD! I tried to take it in for a moment, that I was in the actual presence of God and He…God was in my bedroom, as I continued to kneel on my bedroom carpet crying. Feeling so helpless and a bit embarrassed of all my overwhelming senses firing off at once causing a state of many raw emotions at a time; I couldn’t speak. I kept wiping away tears from my eyes and bowing down to God as He stood in my bedroom beside Raphael in silence. Everyone was staring down at me like a child.

 

God was very tall. He was actually so tall that he nearly touched my high ceiling in my room. He had on a long white flowing gown with a golden belt around his waist that glistened, with white strappy sandals. You could see a hue of blue, yellow, and flecks of gold and white light radiating from his body.

 

I could not make out any facial features because His face was completely illuminated in a powerful white light. However, I did see a flowing white beard and soon heard a booming dominant male voice erupt from the bright white glow. The voice was so loud it almost echoed as He spoke.

 

“Do as Archangel Raphael says, and you shall heal in 6 days. You are meant to help others as Raphael has said. This is the ‘Mission’ I have given you. Do as you are told. Raphael will guide you through your life and will always be there for you. Remember, ask and you shall understand and receive. Do this in the name of God.” God said standing tall in front of me near my bedroom window.

 

“Yes, My Father, “I replied. “I will. I am just confused at to why you picked me? I am not the smartest person. Surely, there has to be another smarter, better, and more capable then I.” I spoke. “I feel like I will let you down, Sir,” I replied feeling rather low. This was a HUGE TASK! What if I let God down? I couldn’t live with myself. I thought.

 

I could feel that God was displeased with my reply. He shifted his weight from one side to the other uneasily, took in a deep breath and replied: “My dear, No. You are the one to do this job and mission. There IS NO ONE ELSE. In time, you will learn. Let this loving angel guide you and know we are all here for you. Just call us and we will be by your side.”

 

I then asked many personal questions about my life, about the world, and society, and how I was to learn what God wanted me to learn. God explained a lot to me and soon God stated that it was time for them to go.

 

I thanked God and told Him I would do my best in what He has entrusted me to do. I said I was not sure of how to do that yet but I would listen to Archangel Raphael, do what I was told, and look and wait for signs. I knew that Raphael and God had purposely brought my two relatives from heaven that I missed so dearly for me to listen and take my mission seriously. They were a sign from God. I would comply with God’s Will and listen.

 

They all bid me goodbye. My uncle and grandfather both nodded to me a goodbye as Raphael said, “I am always near, even if you can’t see me, you will hear me and feel me. Rest well now,” the radiant archangel spoke. Then I saw a flash of white light that was so bright I had to shield my eyes by holding my forearm over my face.

 

When I put my arm down, I was alone in my bedroom covered in my tears. I had cried so much this whole time that my nightgown was soaking wet. I looked over at my clock and I saw that three hours had gone by and it was now dark outside.

 

Overwhelmed and in shock from my experienced I laid down on my bedroom floor right then, feeling so much peace, and so thankful; that I  immediately fell into a deep sleep.

 

          Six days later; just as many days as it took for God to create the earth, I felt better; just as God and the Healing Angel had promised.  On the ninth day, I was completely healed. I never had a fever during this sickness and never went to the doctor. I was able to have a good Christmas and New Years with my family and friends, like I had never even been sick!

 

Since that December 23^rd in 2020, I celebrate each year the day I met Archangel Raphael, the Healing Angel who shown the book cover and prayer to me when I was so ill and at death’s door. So much has changed now. That day I began to open up and accept my mission.

 

Raphael guides me each day, just as he said he would. He sends me people I can help, just as he told me he would, and he gives me messages from Heaven for me, my loved ones, and clients. God allows Raphael to guide me so I can then guide my clients to be as happy as they possibly can.

 

If we need something, God knows it. Raphael aids me in providing that message to my clients so that they can have a better life. God wants them to have closure, peace, comfort, and assurance that their loved ones are well and in heaven.  Most importantly, God wants my clients to know that their loved ones are watching over them from heaven, with love, protection, and support.  

 

          Raphael has seen me through many sicknesses and trials since that day in December and he has “NEVER LEFT MY SIDE.”  We have a wonderful relationship, and he truly is like a brother to me.  He loves jokes and has a wonderful sense of humor.   He is my angel, my guide, and my best friend. All though my life has not been easy since taking on God’s Mission, which is full of trials, losses, lack of energy, and many sicknesses, it has all been worth it.

 

Thank you Archangel Raphael from the bottom of my heart for all that you have helped me with and all that I have learned and endured. It has made me the strong woman I am today and I wouldn’t change a thing or have it any other way.

 

©Rosella C. Rowe

 **Good Books to read regarding Archangel Raphael (St. Raphael):**

*-Archangels and Ascended Masters: A Guide to Working and Healing With Divinities and Deities Paperback – January 1, 2003.  By Doreen Virtue  (*Note to Readers:* This is the very book I saw while trying to sleep and the book I found the prayer in and I ordered.)

-Archangel Raphael Healing Oracle Cards: A 44-Card Deck and Guidebook Cards – May 1, 2010.  By Doreen Virtue (Author)

-St. Raphael: Angel of Marriage, of Healing, of Happy Meetings, of Joy and of Travel Paperback – December 1, 1999.  By Angela Carol  (*Note to Readers: Religious Guide, but great for explaining sightings of Archangel Raphael.)

-Raphael: Communicating with the Archangel for Healing & Creativity (Angels Series, 3) Paperback – May 8, 2005 by Richard Webster available on Amazon (*Note to Readers:* This was my absolute favorite book written regarding Archangel Raphael. I feel strongly, that it depicts Raphael so well and how I see and interact with him on a daily basis. This is the closest book I have found to who he really is and how he acts and helps others.)